Let's talk about dating...
... no not me and you, cause we both know that can't happen. I had a date this week - but he canceled cause he got sick - and before we go to the "he blew me off" stage - I do believe that he was truly ill... but the communication since has been "ew" to say the least. I don't like it when I am trying to get to know someone and they keep turning the conversation to the physical. That is what this guy did in our last talk... and quite frankly it has annoyed me and turned me off a bit. I don't know... I mean flirt with me like that when we know there is chemistry - not before we have even entered the lab. Errr... I'm bothered by it. So now I don't know what to do. I don't know if I should go ahead and go out with him - or whether I should just go with my gut (which is turned off now) and decline the attempt to reschedule. Thoughts? Advice?I also have been chatting with someone else - I like this other guy so far - we can call him "Eddie Bauer" as K has nicknamed him. Albeit we have just started to chat - but he seems so sweet. (I know that is probably a man's worst nightmare to be described as "sweet" - but seriously, he just seems like such a sweet person.) I get kind of giddy when I hear from him - he is older than I am - seven years. He has a daughter, and what he has said about her thus far I have really liked. He has also shown interest in what I do with the Wee Man - again, I was impressed by that. I don't know - we'll see... Eddie Bauer is out of town till this weekend so we have been emailing... maybe we'll get together when he gets back. I went to dinner with G & CC last night... funny topic came up about "romantic" gestures they have done for girlfriends & ones that I have received. I realized as I sat struggling to try to remember a really nice romantic gesture that was done for me - that I really don't think I have received many. I mean - I told the story of how Sr. proposed to me - which was nice & romantic - but it was supposed to be - it was a proposal. When thinking of "just because" romantic gestures - I don't know that I have ever had what G & CC have done for their sig. others. Makes me think about the fact that I would really like to meet someone that cherishes me... I realize that I have probably always done the cherishing in my past relationships - cause the guys who probably would have done that for me, I didn't give the chance. Sad... but made me realize how different I am now - from who I once was. I want spark, chemistry, fun, laughter and all of that - but I also want to find someone who just plain thinks about me. Just thinks of me and smiles. Someone who worries about me - about whether I am ok, happy, comfortable, loved. I want someone who can't wait to see me - who thinks all of my little idiosyncrasies add up to something grand. I want someone who thinks that the dichotomy that is me - makes sense. I want someone to lean on when I need to... that would be nice.
Ok 'nuff of that... I've also started looking into indoor rock climbing gyms. I have a few motivations for doing this 1) the Wee will love it! (I think) 2) I'm hoping it will cure me of this crazy fear of heights I mysteriously developed at 23 years old 3) I think it will be a GREAT stress relief 4) I think it will be empowering - and who doesn't need to feel more empowered? 5) I think it will be a good work out without even really being a work out, if you know what I mean. I think I will be so into the challenge of it, that I won't even recognize that I am working my ass off. 6) I need something to do when I don't have the Little Man. So... I have found two gyms that I want to look into... it might be a bit spendy, but I figure if I start small with maybe a few lessons and then if I find I am really into it - then N can always work his REI magic and get me some discounts on gear - and voila! I'll be a climber! :-)
Sorry for the rant/ramble above... thoughts just keep crossing my mind - and I am trying to chase them away.
posted by Brat @ 9:51 PM
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